I don’t know what to call it. Maturity maybe? Perhaps it’s what they call “letting go?” I don’t know. Whatever it is, I had a moment today where all the anger and resentment that caused me to walk around with a heavy heart for so long just, dropped.
It was a very ordinary moment. Nothing special happened. But one glimpse at this person’s heart and I was filled with emotions of sympathy, compassion, and unfortunately.. a lot of regret. Regret that I allowed myself to use anger as a justification to walk away.
I purposely didn’t make any lofty resolutions or goals for myself in 2013. However, perhaps this year may be a year where I make amends. Though very cliche, life is indeed, too short. I will never know how long someone in my life will be there and that scares me in all honesty. I will make attempts to repair the broken relationships I have in my life knowing full well they may never get fixed. But trying is all I can do and for that I know I won’t regret.
I realized I never went on a trip far away with just 1 other person before. It’s always been with a group.
I hope to do so someday soon.
Hard alcohol, you are no friend of mine. You were back in the college days but those days are long gone. I’m gonna lay off of you from now on, especially in large quantities.
You simply come with too much baggage the morning after.
When you approach someone directly and say “I’m sorry” in a sincere manner it truly goes a long way.
Even though it’s silly I contemplated what would happen if I took that road, but quickly realized the result would be a dead end.
When a girl speaks these words to me: “You’re such a nice guy.”
I cringe inside.
You know what I enjoy? The 20-some-odd minute drive home in the wee hours of the night from wherever. The music on in the background and just me. All alone. Lost in my own thoughts.
Having options is a great feeling to have.