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Trying to Quench My Thirst

13 Jesus said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, 14 but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”

- John, Ch. 4

This past week I’ve been reflecting on this encounter Jesus has with a  Samaritan woman. The conversation centers around a well and water. Further into the chapter we learn that the woman has a history of unsuccessful marriages. Five to be exact. It’s clear that she has been thirsting for love and attempted to quench it through relationships with men. In the end, however, she ends back at square one—thirsty. 

I’ve been trying to quench my thirst for some time now. I’ve attempted to do so through friends, materials things, girls, and giving in to sin. Time after time this happens and like the Samaritan woman, I feel discouraged. But in the midst of my dissatisfaction Jesus extends his grace and offers me a drink. The desires and wants I have, although still present, in comparison, grows dim to the peace Jesus offers me.

Starting Anew

I don’t know what to call it. Maturity maybe? Perhaps it’s what they call “letting go?” I don’t know. Whatever it is, I had a moment today where all the anger and resentment that caused me to walk around with a heavy heart for so long just, dropped. 

It was a very ordinary moment. Nothing special happened. But one glimpse at this person’s heart and I was filled with emotions of sympathy, compassion, and unfortunately.. a lot of regret. Regret that I allowed myself to use anger as a justification to walk away. 

I purposely didn’t make any lofty resolutions or goals for myself in 2013. However, perhaps this year may be a year where I make amends. Though very cliche, life is indeed, too short. I will never know how long someone in my life will be there and that scares me in all honesty. I will make attempts to repair the broken relationships I have in my life knowing full well they may never get fixed. But trying is all I can do and for that I know I won’t regret. 

Hard alcohol, you are no friend of mine. You were back in the college days but those days are long gone. I’m gonna lay off of you from now on, especially in large quantities.

You simply come with too much baggage the morning after.